Not a Self Portrait: Stressed
Well, I never got around to taking a self-portrait this weekend, so you get this kind of unflattering shot of me from Friday night. This was when I made a short appearance at the derby Christmas party before I had to head out to work… hence the uniform. Something made me laugh just before the picture was taken… hence the double-chin. But I share the picture anyway because it represents a bright moment in a really rough day.
Friday was one of those days where all you want to do is go home, hop in a jacuzzi with an adult beverage, and ignore the world. Unfortunately, that was not going to be possible (not least because I don’t actually know anyone with a jacuzzi) because I was over scheduled. I worked first and third shift on Friday, with a small nap and a short derby party appearance in between. Add onto that an abundance of scheduled for the following week… work, meetings, derby, family obligations, etc. I was one stressed out cookie. By about 9am, I was in the bathroom at work crying. For no good reason at all, really. But it did release some of that pent-up stress. Heading out to see my girls, even if only for an hour, helped a whole lot more.
Doesn’t make the rest of this week any less hectic, but I am at least slightly less stressed about it. I also came to the realization that something had to give, and this year, that’s the baking. I made a batch of Scrabble on Saturday and that will likely be the extent of it. There is always more than enough cookies for 3 times the number of people than we have, so I don’t see any need to overwhelm myself just to add to it. There is plenty of time for baking cookies after the holidays when I’m less busy. And next year? I think I’ll try and plan ahead so that I have some vacation days to take the week before Christmas.
