On the left is the first picture I took of myself in an SBRG league t-shirt. On the right is the most recent picture of me in an SBRG t-shirt, my headshot. You can see clearly that I’ve lost weight. But the fact of the matter is, I’ve been pretty well stalled out for almost a year. I still get people telling me that I look great, asking how much weight I’m losing, so maybe I’m adding muscle and redistributing… I’m more inclined to believe that I’m simply wearing more figure flattering clothes these days. I am, in fact, at basically the same weight now that I was at the beginning of the year. I’ve lost momentum, and I don’t really know how to get it back. Beyond figuring out what suppresses appetite anyway.
Weight Watchers changed their program just after Thanksgiving last year which threw me for a loop. My weight loss had been coming at a very steady rate until that point. Then I lost a couple more pounds through the end of the year and stalled out. I was firmly on a plateau. After that, I was frustrated with not making any progress. There was a little bit of “Well, I’m not getting anywhere so I’m going to just eat what I want!” I also couldn’t justify paying $18/month for Weight Watchers anymore. I’ve been trying to use MyFitnessPal to count calories, but it’s not really working for me. Partially because I have had exactly no motivation and have spent a lot of time tracking just how “bad” I’m being. And partially because calorie counting just plain isn’t working well for me. It seems counter-intuitive because calorie counting should be easy. You have 1500 calories a day, you deduct this 356 calories from that total. Easy, right? Except I can’t seem to have a concept of how many calories is too much to spend on a meal or a snack. With WW points, I knew that if I had 32 points a day, 8 points was probably too much to spend on a snack. But I have no concept of 280 calories being too many calories to spend on that same snack.
I don’t know what the answer is… Calorie counting is “easier”, it’s faster, I don’t have to spend as much time looking up/doing the math on labels to get the information I need… but it’s not working. I don’t know if going back on Weight Watchers would help. I do know that it’s $18/month that I don’t have, especially now that I’m trying to pay off the surgery. And I do know that I’m not happy with maintaining where I’m at now, especially since I’m not so much maintaining anymore as creeping upward.
So yeah… that’s where I’m at now in this journey.